Friday, June 24, 2011
I Don't Feel Crappy Anymore!
In the beginning, fighting pessimism was a lot like stomping on a spider: annoying and a little messy, but a minor blip in the day. But for a few months I felt like I was trying to fight a dragon with a hair pin. But one day last week, I felt a feeling that seemed familiar that I couldn't quite name. I nearly fell out of my chair when I realized it was optimism. I feel optimistic that this year I will be subbing, maybe even teaching. I feel optimistic that my test results will be fine. I feel optimistic that I can get done what needs to be done to do what I want to do! I admit, it's not the eager optimism of my youth, but it is a weight off of my heart.
Why? The only thing different in my life right now is that my thyroid prescription has been increased. (Hey, God answers prayers in interesting ways. I prayed to feel better and be more motivated, and I got symptoms that made me feel bad enough to go see a specialist in another area who said "Hmmm... You have an underactive thyroid listed under previous conditions... Last checked over six months ago? Let's go with a simple blood test, first..")
What's my point? Not much. Just that I'm feeling really good for a change.
How are you?